Again With The Dreams.

I've written a lot about dreams lately, but that's only because I'm in a stage of high dream production, and I feel it's interesting to write them down for later review.

I often dream when I take naps in the middle of the day. I'm capable of slipping into REM sleep fairly quickly, and even within a 15 minute nap I can experience an entire dream narrative. Well, at least I think I do. With the way my brain works I'm sure I experience a portion of my dream while asleep and in the milliseconds from when I officially wake up to the moment I open my eyes I have a feeling my brain adds context and meaning to what I just experienced. As a result the bulk of my dreams are created the second I wake up. Not unlike being handed a box of puzzle pieces, unconnected and random. Even if there's a few pieces missing I can put the picture together in my head instantly.

The latest dream I had actually occurred this afternoon. I was taking a nap after school. The dream started off in a city I've dreamed of before. It's an amalgamated image of any metropolis, and specific to no one in particular. I'm on a double date and I'm walking across a parking lot with my date. It's dark and only the occasional lighting from parking lot lamps light the way. We're heading over towards a large warehouse building. There's a patch of lawn in front of us, and a long stretch of road heading back behind the building. The road has a boulevard with trees and lamps taking turns dotting the strip of land.

While walking with my date with the other two behind us my date grows amorous and we call back to the other two saying we'll meet them at the restaurant. In an effort to keep this PG we'll just leave it at that for the moment. Afterwards we head towards the restaurant which consists of a large building that looks like a series of houses stacked and jammed into one another. Imagine a stack of Jenga blocks, about 6 high with some of them sticking out at different lengths. The restaurant houses several different restaurants ranging from a downstairs tavern all the way to a ballroom-centered restaurant at the top. The building is blue and made of wood and brick and looks somehow ancient. There are ramps and staircases all over the building, leading to the different establishments. We meet up with the other couple who are waiting in line at one of the entrances. At this point I wake up.

What was really interesting is I knew the girl I was on the date with, but I don't know who she is. She was a chimera of several of the women in my life right now. Women who I find to be stimulating if not romantically inclined. I don't know what that says about my state as it is right now. I'm trying to stay focused on school, and I know I don't have the resources at my disposal right now to even allow myself to be interested in a woman. I'm okay with the fact that I don't look 100% these days. Maybe 85%, and that's much higher than I could say a few months ago. Regardless I don't really consist of "dating material".

It's somewhat uncomfortable to be confronted with these dreams because they seek to rebel against my station in life. I've often joked with myself that I'd be very successful at a vow of celibacy.

I'm off to bed, and hopefully whatever dreams I compose will remain vague and uneventful. I'd even settle for a nightmare just to mix things up a bit. I can handle horror, it's love that freaks me out.