Commercial Success.

The problem with ideas is the following through of them. I'm nothing if not a thinker and imaginer, but I have trouble "doing".

Among what I'd like to think are a series of brilliant ideas is one for a sort of commercial-based sketch comedy. The premise would be to take current commercials and either re-dub them with dialogue that I feel suits the scene being presented on the screen before us, or reconstruct the commercial altogether, from the ground up.

This is hardly a new idea, as the dubbing over of commercials for comedic purposes has been done on nearly every website with both a sense of humour and a means to display video. I guess I've just got the fuel to transform nearly every commercial I witness into some form of joke, but little means to do so.

It's a bit of a running theme in my life, the conception of a thought, but aborting it before bearing it. I've got a stack of old books sitting in my hallway I had the intention of turning into a lamp with a little garage-style electronics work. I have art supplies, video editing programs, recipes, all of them remain in potentia, so close to the edge of actualization that they might as well self-manifest.

So what's the cause of this inability to create? Back in high school when I left many a homework unfinished and even un-started, I claimed it was a form of perfectionism. I was unwilling to start something for fear it would not be perfect. A completely reasonable conclusion. So often in my art have I been able to clearly visualize what I wish to draw or paint, but a lack of formal training and inability to command my fingers to function like the ink-jet printer I wish they were leaves my work stranded somewhere between abstract and grade 1 macaroni art.

Secondly is an attachment I get to ideas that makes them impossible to be lived up to. Almost compulsively I turn simple potentialities into gussied up romantic versions of their real selves that when they fail to measure up (and they always do) I am crestfallen. From the act of cooking to relationships and everything in between, I feel as though my brain and heart are run by a Hollywood producer, so slick and fast talking that I am convinced that I can do anything!

Add these two dilemmas together and you can see why I so rarely act upon my ideas. Rejection and frustration are powerful venoms in the heart of a dreamer. I think, perhaps it is best to dream and let others act upon those ideas. I should serve as thinker and planner and delegate to others with skills better suited to turn my dreams into realities.

There's nothing wrong with that, is there?