Critical Error.

I'm not comfortable with making mistakes. That doesn't mean I don't make mistakes, I make plenty. I am human after all. It's the venue in which I make mistakes that causes me discomfort. For example, if I make a mistake at home I know my family well enough to know what to expect in return. If I make a mistake with my friends I know they're not going to give me a hard time about it. When I make a mistake at work, however I'm terrified. It's primarily because of one of my superiors. I don't know how to talk to her, I always feel like I have to impress her, or be flawless. I don't know why this is exactly, but whenever I make some kind of error and I have to answer to her I feel absolutely impotent.

Today at work I made a fairly large mistake. Without going into the details and boring you, I mistakenly gave a customer a $400+ discount on several barstools he purchased. It was really a matter of me acting too fast and not handling the situation well. My concern really lies in the fact that tomorrow at work I have to answer to my superior and I'm already nervous about it.

Now often this ends up being a case where I worry too much and nothing ends up happening as a result. I just don't like being scolded, that's really the issue here. I've stated in previous posts I'm uncomfortable with getting in trouble, and scolding is more or less just a version of that. I don't know why it bothers me so much, but I will lose sleep over it.

I don't have a tonne left to post about tonight, so I'll just let that drift and we'll see how tomorrow goes.