There was a risk I wasn't going to post anything today, so instead I'll just make a brief post about my knees. My knees hurt as a result of standing for 5 hours today at work on a hard tile floor. After my surgery and the accident that invoked it, my legs in general have been sore. I hadn't noticed how bad it was until recently when I returned to work.
I've spoken with my physiotherapist about solutions, and we've come up with a few. First is to try orthotics to ease the pressure being applied to my foot, which should aid in relief all the way up my leg and back. Secondly is to get fitted for a brace which will essentially float my knee and take the pressure off of it.
The whole situation is a rather bleak look at what my future holds as I get older. Joints tend to get worse as you age, but my legs have been accelerated along this track and I feel way older than I am. Long gone are the days where I could run and jump like a child. Running is out of the question, and jumping even more so. Slight hops to get things on top shelves at work are excruciating (and I don't use that word lightly).
I've tried to be angry at the guy who caused my accident, I've tried plenty. I just can't seem to get there though. No matter how upset I want to be, I think, "it was an accident, he made a poor choice and as a result I'm suffering. If the tables were turned I'd want to be forgiven and so I've forgiven him". He's a young guy, and assuming he's not a sociopath he's felt guilty about all of this. I don't expect him to be ruined for life as a result, but after the lawsuit is said and done I imagine he won't think too much about it.
All I know is my life has been forever changed as a result, and change is good.
Hold on to that final thought.
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